“I’m currently with someone,” I texted after receiving a flurry of messages from my friend, Sarah, who was having a particularly bleak night. She was aware that I was out with my best friend, someone I hadn’t seen in half a year, and that I’d been through a tough week.
The next morning at 7 AM, my phone rang. It was Sarah, despite knowing I was sleeping at my partner’s place. Just a few days prior, during dinner, she had dominated the conversation, sharing incessantly about her struggles with finances and her children, without once asking about my life.
“I can’t afford a new dryer,” she lamented while flaunting a brand-new designer handbag. She had even rescheduled our meet-up to accommodate her nail and lash appointments. When I asked her about the bag, she broke down in tears, claiming she couldn’t escape her “situation.”
At that moment, I decided to stay quiet. It became evident that she was more interested in my sympathy than in a genuine conversation. I was already weary and wished to leave before dinner was served.
I felt guilty for my critical thoughts, but enough was enough. I had rearranged my day because “she needed me,” yet when I faced challenges, she never reached out.
Sitting across from her, it hit me: I had allowed this dynamic to continue for far too long. I didn’t owe her my time or emotional labor. I could choose to ignore her calls and messages. Over time, I realized our friendship had become one-sided, and I had been holding on, thinking she depended on me since others had distanced themselves.
The guilt was overwhelming, and I felt sick at the thought of abandoning someone in need. But my frustration simmered until I was on the verge of exploding when she called during my precious, child-free morning.
Reflecting on our friendship, I recognized I was tired of hearing the same stories about her struggles for the past five years. Whenever I needed support, she was often unavailable, busy with her own life. I kept convincing myself that I was the strong one.
It’s natural to seek friendship during tough times, and we all appreciate having a friend to lean on. However, there’s a significant difference between needing support and being an emotional leech, leaving others feeling drained and battered.
It’s entirely possible to need a friend without taking advantage of them. Setting boundaries is essential, and I had attempted to communicate mine multiple times; each time, she promised change, but nothing improved.
Our situation had become unbearable: she expected me to be available whenever she called, while I felt increasingly resentful. Most importantly, I didn’t want to continue feeling angry at her.
Realizing that people rarely change to fit our needs, I reached a conclusion: I had to end this friendship. Initially, I wrestled with the idea, fearing it was cruel, but I soon recognized it was the kindest choice—for both of us.
Caring for someone doesn’t mean you can’t prioritize your mental well-being. It’s perfectly acceptable to express the need for space or to say goodbye. You don’t need to create drama or burn bridges; it’s possible to part ways with kindness.
When I finally told Sarah that I needed to end our friendship, it was painful. She expressed her disappointment and promised to try harder, but I simply couldn’t do it anymore. I had nothing left to give.
Wishing her well, I moved on. This wasn’t about being a selfish person; it was about self-care. It meant establishing firm boundaries after too many violations. By freeing myself from this toxic friendship, I knew I could be a better friend, family member, and employee without constantly depleting my mental energy on someone who didn’t appreciate it.
In the long run, I hope that Sarah realizes her role in pushing others away and learns to improve herself. By holding onto our friendship, I had only enabled her to blame others for her loneliness. I refuse to carry that burden.
Now, I can breathe a sigh of relief each time my phone rings, no longer dreading the possibility of it being her. I genuinely believe that walking away made me a better friend than I ever could have been by staying.
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