Over fourteen years ago, just days before my husband and I were set to celebrate our first wedding anniversary, we thought the perfect gift would be to welcome two puppies into our lives. Yes, not just one, but two! It was a decision fueled by youthful optimism and a love so deep that we believed we could handle the chaos that comes with raising two dogs.
We were completely unprepared. Enthusiastic? Absolutely! But also bewilderingly naive.
After a five-hour drive, we brought home our new furry family members — our first “kids,” Max and Bella (for the fans of classic sitcoms, their names might resonate). Within hours, the reality of our choice hit us hard. Two puppies in a small apartment on the third floor of a Chicago building? In hindsight, we weren’t just naive; we were a bit out of our minds.
They left little surprises all over our place, howled at the crack of dawn, and even chewed on our furniture.
Yet, as time passed, the initial chaos transformed into cherished moments filled with long walks, snuggles on the couch, and endless games of fetch. Over the years, Max and Bella became integral to every milestone in our lives together. They weren’t merely dogs; they were family, a duo that was inseparable.
The influence they had on our lives is immeasurable, and while the stories are personal to us, they reflect the profound bond shared between humans and their dogs. Anyone who has loved a dog knows exactly what I mean.
Last March, we faced the heart-wrenching reality of losing Max. After a prolonged illness, where he required daily insulin shots, special meals, and various medications, his time came. Despite knowing it was the end, his passing left a significant void. Remarkably, even in death, Bella and Max felt like a pair; we still referred to them as “the dogs.”
A couple of months later, Bella, our “miracle dog,” who had defied cancer years before, fell victim to heart failure. True to her spirited nature, she fought bravely for months but ultimately succumbed to her illness nearly six months after Max passed. I firmly believe she died of a broken heart.
Now, our home is empty, and our hearts ache. While I am thankful for the time we had, sadness looms large in my day-to-day life. It’s hard to accept their absence. Some days, it feels surreal that they are truly gone. I catch myself wondering when I’ll stop instinctively thinking about letting the dogs out or how I’ll adjust to not having them greet me at the door.
At times, the depth of my grief surprises me. Even weeks later, I find myself grappling with the profound loss of my furry companions. It might feel excessive to mourn them so deeply — after all, they were “just dogs” — but it’s a testament to the love we shared.
My children are coping in their own unique ways. One son was inconsolable after Max passed, crying and holding him close during his final moments. He grieved deeply when Bella left us as well. In contrast, my other son’s sorrow has been more gradual, often surfacing unexpectedly. He channels his feelings into drawings and talks about them frequently, saying things like, “I miss Max and Bella.”
And I do, every single day.
People often say that dogs embody the best qualities of humanity, but perhaps it’s more accurate to say they simply embody the best qualities, period. Their joy, loyalty, and boundless love are unmatched. They find happiness in the simple things — a nice walk, a favorite chew toy, or a cozy nap with a friend.
Although there may be scientific reasons for these beloved traits, I like to think it’s because they have mastered the essence of enjoying life. They’re here to remind us how to do the same.
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In summary, losing a dog can leave a void that feels insurmountable. The love we share with our pets is profound and shapes our lives in ways we can’t fully understand until they’re gone. The grief may linger, but it’s a testament to the unconditional love that defines our relationships with these cherished companions.
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