Dear Child,
One day, you might stumble upon this letter. Perhaps you’ll find it online, or I might hand it to you when you’re a parent yourself. Or maybe you’ll discover it soon, doodling a flamingo on the side (I know how much you adore those right now) and ask me to read it aloud.
Today, I find myself exhausted. You’re at school, and I can’t help but feel a void without you here. I wonder if you feel the same way.
I often ponder what memories you’ll hold onto from this day. Will you recall the adventures you had? Did you forge a new friendship or share a laugh? I hope you remember the drawing you created; I certainly will, as I cherish every piece of art you give me.
I wonder if the moments when I was weary will stick with you. Will you remember if I was a bit irritable or if I raised my voice when you took your time putting on your shoes after I kindly asked you numerous times? Those memories will linger in my mind as I wish I had handled things differently.
Reflecting on our recent trip to the pumpkin patch, I hope you remember the joy we shared riding the Bumpy Cow Train. I aim to fill our time together with as many joyful moments as possible. I will remember every little laugh and smile because they mean the world to me.
I ponder whether you’ll remember the hours I spent working, always attached to my phone, answering emails and texts. I hope you understand that I strive to give you the best life possible. I fear I might miss precious moments with you while I’m occupied.
I consider our time as a family when Mom and Dad were together. Will you recall the day we moved out? I hope you remember that my happiness grew afterward, allowing me to be a better version of myself for you. I’ll reflect on that choice daily until you tell me it was for the best, and you understand.
I wonder if you’ll remember those long nights when you were sick, and I stayed by your side, listening to your breaths and checking your temperature without waking you. Those moments will be etched in my heart forever.
I hope you’ll carry with you the overwhelming love I have for you. I wonder if you’ll remember feeling that love because it fills my heart every single day.
I think about my own childhood and how little I remember. I don’t recall my mother, your Grandma Nancy, struggling as a single parent. I can’t picture her being worn out or short-tempered. I just know these things because she shared her experiences with me, as I am sharing mine with you.
If you ever wonder about these moments, I hope you remember how deeply you were loved. And if you’re reading this in the future, perhaps in 2050 with your own little ones, I invite you to revisit this day when you were just three, and I was 30, doing my utmost to love you. Please tell me it all mattered. Tell me that everything I went through for us was worthwhile.
Summary:
This heartfelt letter explores the hopes and memories a mother wishes her child will carry into the future. It reflects on daily experiences, moments of love, and the challenges of parenting, as well as the desire for recognition of those sacrifices. The narrative emphasizes the importance of love, connection, and memory in the parent-child relationship.
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