This past weekend coincided with Thanksgiving, and I found myself battling feelings of sadness and irritability for about 12 long hours. Contrary to the typical holiday stresses, my Thanksgiving itself was perfectly fine. I connected well with my extended family, my kids were manageable, and I avoided the usual holiday traffic chaos. I didn’t even have to handle cooking or cleaning. Surprisingly, I also wasn’t dealing with PMS.
It took a single moody evening and a frustrating morning of snapping at my husband and kids to realize the root of my discontent: I hadn’t carved out any time for myself throughout the weekend.
In the lead-up to Thanksgiving, I had poured significant effort into ensuring that my work responsibilities were settled, so I could focus solely on enjoying family time. After the holiday festivities wrapped up, I was busy organizing a list of activities everyone wanted to do, meticulously planning our days to ensure nothing was overlooked.
I arranged a family trip to pick out our Christmas tree and new decorations, coordinated a movie outing by researching showtimes for all the films my kids wished to see, and even completed my holiday shopping online with impressive efficiency on Black Friday. I even orchestrated a date night with my husband.
Yet, not once did I allocate time for myself.
Like many mothers, this behavior is all too familiar. My instinct is to prioritize everyone else’s needs and hope my own needs will somehow be acknowledged. It’s a pattern I should recognize by now, yet the chance to dedicate time for myself doesn’t appear out of thin air. My life is chaotic, filled with work commitments, managing household tasks, and the unspoken emotional labor of family life. The reality is, if I want anything to happen for me, I have to plan it out.
Strangely, it seems easier to plan for others than for myself. Is this a result of societal conditioning or perhaps my longstanding role as a caregiver in my own family? I’m uncertain, but after years of this behavior, it feels daunting to shift gears. Taking time to say, “I deserve this afternoon for me” proves to be a challenge, which is both absurd and disheartening.
However, after enduring a heavy sense of discontent for the better part of a day, I had an epiphany. It may sound cliché, but here it is: I MATTER. I matter, and that stands alone as a complete thought.
Securing a few hours for myself, even amidst the busyness of family life, is just as crucial as ensuring everyone else enjoys their time. It’s not merely about the old saying that you can’t pour from an empty cup; it’s more than that. A mother should not have to justify her self-care by framing it as a means to better serve her family. Why can’t my happiness be a valid reason for pursuing joy? It absolutely should be.
I refuse to keep my own desires on hold. After my cranky morning, I asked my husband to take the kids out for a while so I could indulge in my favorite pastime: curling up with a good book and writing poetry. I spent that afternoon lost in my writing, sipping peppermint tea, without a shred of guilt. It felt rejuvenating.
Going forward, I plan to prioritize this. I’m finished with putting my needs on the back burner. I’m through with postponing my personal ambitions and passions. I’ve recognized that neglecting my own fulfillment benefits no one — it only stifles my own joy.
For me, being true to myself includes quiet afternoons spent in solitude with my poetry. For others, it may involve enrolling in a dance class, planning a getaway with friends, or even just enjoying a day alone in the city exploring bookstores. Whatever it is that brings you happiness, pursue it now. Don’t delay or overthink it, just do it for the sheer joy it brings you.
Why deny yourself the fundamental human right to pleasure and happiness? You truly deserve it.
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Summary
Recognizing the importance of self-care is essential, especially for caregivers. Prioritize your own needs and happiness to foster a positive environment for yourself and your family. Don’t hesitate to engage in activities that bring you joy, as they are not only valid but necessary for personal fulfillment.
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