In my twenties, I was the go-to babysitter for many local families, always on speed dial for my ability to quickly tuck children into bed, entice them with healthy foods, and ease their tears when they were reluctant to let me leave. I prided myself on being the ultimate caregiver, fully confident in my skills.
However, I was blissfully unaware of my own ignorance.
One evening, after successfully getting two young girls to sleep in record time, I went downstairs to meet their parents. The look of disbelief on their faces, particularly the mother’s, was striking. She struggled to comprehend how I could accomplish what typically took her much longer—without any of the usual meltdowns. With a smug smile, I offered her detailed advice on how to achieve an effortless bedtime routine.
“If you just sit with a flashlight and some books, they won’t get too clingy. Make sure to ask if they’re comfy and cozy right away. And don’t cuddle them; just read quietly and pretend to yawn a lot. They’ll be asleep in no time!”
I was oblivious to the tear rolling down the mother’s cheek as she admitted that her bedtime battles often dragged on for hours. In that moment, I thought I was simply enlightening her with my superior knowledge. It never occurred to me how misguided I was.
Fast forward to today, and I can recount the extensive bedtime routine of my four-year-old. It now takes at least an hour, filled with bubble baths, negotiations about brushing teeth, multiple costume changes, and numerous bedtime stories. Sometimes, she wakes up hours later, screaming for me due to a nightmare, only to push me away when I try to comfort her. Did I mention that we also have a one-year-old who’s struggling to sleep?
The early days of motherhood have humbled me immensely. I now realize how little I understood about the real challenges parents face.
I remember having coffee with a friend who would often park her toddler in front of the television so we could enjoy some adult conversation. I used to silently judge her, convinced she was turning her child into a “screen zombie.” Little did I know, I was making sweeping assumptions without understanding her reality.
Moreover, I had grand plans for my future children: I envisioned a strictly vegan diet, a no-screens policy, and a perfectly organized household with homemade organic meals every night. I thought breastfeeding would be a breeze, and my kids would be model citizens, never throwing public tantrums. I aimed to be the ultimate stay-at-home mom—no pressure, right?
Now, my expectations have been completely upended. The limits I set for screen time have vanished, and my children’s snacks—vegan or otherwise—often litter the couch while I scroll through my phone in exhaustion. Our dinner table has become a catch-all for art supplies and half-empty coffee cups. Breastfeeding turned out to be a far greater challenge than I anticipated, and my daughter has public meltdowns that leave me helpless.
As for my body? It certainly didn’t bounce back as I had hoped.
I’ve become that frazzled mom at school drop-offs, often looking disheveled and overwhelmed. I can now empathize with every parent I once judged.
To all the mothers I once looked down upon, I sincerely apologize. I was entirely mistaken in my assumptions. While you were managing the weight of parenting, I failed to recognize the struggles behind your smiles. I didn’t offer help or encouragement when you needed it most. Motherhood has humbled me, and I now see the truth: you are all champions, while I was merely a novice.
Anyone who is child-free and believes they have parenting figured out is missing a fundamental truth. The experience of motherhood reshapes your very being, fostering authenticity and empowerment that can only emerge through lived experience. Before you judge, consider supporting those around you with kindness and understanding.
Now that I am a mother, I fully comprehend that we are all in this together, doing our best with the resources available to us. We are allowed to make mistakes and are so much more than the unrealistic standards we once envisioned.
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In conclusion, motherhood is a journey filled with challenges and growth, and recognizing that we are all navigating it together can be a source of comfort.
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