I couldn’t be happier to say I’m done having babies! Becoming a mother was my ultimate dream, and while I’ve chased other aspirations and achieved things I’m proud of, nothing fills my heart quite like motherhood. I don’t want to be defined solely by my role as a mom, but I’m incredibly grateful that it’s one of my titles.
I’m blessed with three wonderful children: my eldest son is seven, my second son is four, and my little girl is just a few months old. After her birth, my doctor also removed my remaining fallopian tube, marking the end of my baby-making journey. Hooray! I couldn’t be more excited!
I am officially done creating new life, folks. No more nine-month breaks from sushi, caffeine, or roller coasters. While I haven’t hopped on a roller coaster in ages, the freedom to do so whenever I want is thrilling because my womb is officially out of commission.
We’ve opted for a permanent solution, which means no more birth control or family planning. Am I ovulating? Who cares?! We’re not trying to conceive or preventing it; it’s all sorted.
Having the family I always wanted is pure bliss. I typically don’t handle finality well, and emotions around “never” can make me anxious or sad. But not this time. Babies are wonderful, but I am absolutely done.
People often say you’ll know when your family feels complete. I’ve always been skeptical of that sentiment, but when I look at my daughter, she truly feels like the last piece of our family puzzle. The Cloyd Family is officially full.
It’s interesting to reflect on how my feelings have evolved. After my second C-section, my first question to the doctor was, “When can I have another baby?” Apparently, that’s not the norm 24 hours post-surgery, but I was determined to go through it all one last time. It took almost four years to hold our last baby, filled with heartache, but we made it.
I was ready for a tubal ligation before my first trimester even ended. My body has been through a lot with three C-sections and additional surgeries. Enough is enough.
Now that I’m 35 and navigating my final newborn phase, I realize I’m more tired than I anticipated. Anyone who knows me can confirm my love for my little one, but one of the best parts is that she’s the last.
I thought I might feel sorrow, and to be honest, there’s a twinge of bittersweetness. This feels like closing one chapter while opening another. It’s similar to when we sold our first home; I felt a pang of nostalgia, knowing I was leaving a cherished space behind for something better suited for our family’s future.
After years of building our family, it’s surreal to feel complete. But it’s a good kind of strange because I’ll never be pregnant again—ever. Hallelujah!
Of course, I’ll miss some aspects of pregnancy, like the excitement of a positive test and those first gentle movements. My husband sharing sweet moments with my belly was pure magic. But let’s be real—I won’t miss the months of nausea, the discomfort, or the surgical experience of bringing my little ones into the world.
I am incredibly grateful for the opportunity to have had the children I desired, even if it was a rocky road at times. I experienced miscarriages, a cancer scare (which thankfully turned out benign), and an emergency C-section that still makes me uneasy to discuss. But I can feel thankful for both the experience and for being done with this chapter.
I’ve got my team assembled, and together we’ll embrace the next adventure. I can’t wait to see who my kids will become; they’re already pretty amazing. Building our family has been a beautiful journey, but I believe the best is yet to come. If you’re eager for more insights, check out this informative post on Home Insemination Kit or visit Kindbody’s blog for excellent resources on pregnancy and home insemination. For those looking for a comprehensive tool, you can find a great option at Make a Mom’s Artificial Insemination Kit.
Summary
The author expresses joy and relief at having completed her journey of motherhood with three children. While she cherishes the experiences of pregnancy, she is grateful to be done with that chapter of her life, looking forward to new adventures with her family.
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