If you grew up in an environment marked by trauma, you might be feeling especially sensitive during these challenging times. Growing up with complex PTSD, I’ve learned to lean on my partner, Jake, who has become incredibly skilled at supporting me through my ups and downs. He instinctively knows when to give me space and when to step in with his calming presence during moments of panic. When I spiral into feelings of shame or doubt, he serves as my unwavering support – my emotional grounding.
In the wake of the ongoing global pandemic, I find myself even more grateful for our relationship. My childhood experiences of trauma have resurfaced, complicating my mental health journey as I grapple with feelings of panic and regression. Last year, I faced a moment of despair after confronting my PTSD diagnosis, and now, as we navigate this chaotic world, I simply wish to survive without slipping back into that dark place.
Thank goodness for virtual therapy, antidepressants, and comfy loungewear.
If your upbringing was similar to mine, know that you are not alone. As we slog through the stress of COVID-19 together, it’s vital we address the impact of living through a pandemic while managing trauma-based mental health challenges. Amidst the fear-inducing headlines, we need more discussions centered on coping with these unprecedented times, especially for those of us who grew up in abusive or toxic households. The sense of confinement brought on by quarantine can trigger memories of feeling trapped as children, while even mundane activities like grocery shopping can provoke anxiety as we worry about potential dangers lurking around every corner.
We must speak openly about these feelings. It’s absolutely acceptable to not feel okay right now. Everyone is struggling in some way, and it’s important to acknowledge that we’re all dealing with the fallout from this crisis.
Having spent nearly six years in therapy, I understand that mental health recovery is rarely a straight path. I’ve learned to accept setbacks when they arise, recognizing the importance of self-compassion as I work to heal from my past. However, recent days have felt like being shot backward from a cannon without a parachute. We’re all trying to gather the fragmented pieces of our lives while maintaining distance, both physically and emotionally. While we may wear masks to protect ourselves, our emotions often seep through without warning.
We are collectively experiencing trauma, and it’s undeniably challenging.
To cope with these resurfacing symptoms, I’ve turned to a few strategies that may resonate with you. I regularly reassure my inner child, reminding her that I’m here for her. I practice deep breathing exercises to help calm my anxiety. Cleaning frantically has become a way to manage overwhelming feelings. I allow myself moments of indulgence, whether that means sipping wine or crying in the closet. I make time for self-kindness, reflect positive affirmations in the mirror, and prioritize fresh air and laughter with my kids. I’ve even discovered the joy of setting lower expectations for myself, which has proven transformative.
If you find yourself struggling right now, I urge you to reach out for support. Whether it’s connecting with a loved one via video chat or seeking guidance from a therapist, you don’t have to endure this alone. If you’re feeling overwhelmed to the point of contemplating self-harm, please reach out to a crisis hotline. I’ve been there, and I empathize with your pain. Please, stay with us for as long as you can.
Remember, it’s crucial to acknowledge your triggers instead of suppressing them. You are not alone in this journey. Together, we’ll persevere through these challenging times.
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Summary
This article discusses the challenges faced by individuals who grew up in trauma during the COVID-19 pandemic, emphasizing the importance of support, self-compassion, and open dialogue about mental health struggles. It encourages readers to seek help and offers practical coping strategies for managing anxiety and trauma symptoms.
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