Being brought up in an orthodox faith, I learned from an early age that my body was sacred, and it was my duty to keep it concealed. By the time I turned six, I was already familiar with the concept of “modesty.” But what did that really mean? Modesty for me involved hemlines that reached my kneecaps – or perhaps just above if I dared to be a little rebellious. My shoulders had to be covered, and I avoided anything too revealing or tight. Modesty was a reflection of my dedication to my religious beliefs, and I was often reminded that it was also my duty to prevent men and boys from having impure thoughts.
As an adult, I experienced a shift in my beliefs that led me to reassess many aspects of my upbringing. However, the concept of modesty remained difficult to categorize; it didn’t fit neatly into any category of beliefs I was ready to keep, discard, or let go of. Each time I slipped into a dress that veered from my previous norms, a whirlwind of thoughts consumed me:
- Will they see my dress as inappropriate?
- Am I showing too much leg?
- Will they judge my choices?
- Do they consider me less worthy?
- Am I losing my value as a person?
The realization that I was passing these thought patterns onto my children haunted me. The pain of potentially instilling such beliefs in my daughters and the thought of my sons judging a girl’s worth based on her attire weighed heavily on my heart. I became resolute in breaking this cycle of modesty-related anxiety.
Understanding why modesty was so tightly linked to my self-worth has been a challenging journey, shaped by the influence of purity culture prevalent in many orthodox communities. I began to question: How can I move beyond teachings that tie my value to how I cover my body? How can I foster a healthier perspective on modesty for my children?
Gradually, a new narrative began to form in my mind:
- I am not my legs.
- I am not my hemline.
- I am not defined by the fit of my dress or where it falls on my thigh.
- I am a whole person, not merely my appearance or clothing.
This newfound understanding allowed me to embrace my own definition of modesty, one that I could comfortably integrate into my life. Reflecting on my past, I recognize that I wouldn’t have dared to wear a mid-thigh dress that showcased my legs, especially for family photos. Yet this year, I did just that.
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Summary:
Growing up in an orthodox environment, I learned that modesty was linked to my worth, leading to a complex relationship with my body. After a faith transition, I began to untangle these beliefs and redefine modesty for myself and my family. This journey has helped me embrace a more personal understanding of modesty, one that empowers rather than restricts.
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