There wasn’t a major confrontation that led me to end my friendship with Lisa. No heated arguments, tears, or standoffs. Instead, I gradually distanced myself, taking thoughtful steps back until we were no longer in each other’s lives. It was time for a change, and I found the strength to walk away from not just one, but several friendships.
I can’t pinpoint exactly what motivated me to let go of these connections. The common thread was that I felt drained by them. These friendships had shifted from being sources of joy to taking away my time and energy. I don’t think they meant to hurt me; it’s more that I had simply outgrown them. I’m not claiming superiority; I know I have my flaws, and I’m sure they could share their own perspectives on our time together.
This year has been a journey of personal growth for me, filled with challenges. We welcomed another child into our family, but shortly after, I was diagnosed with cancer, which led to a long process of dealing with the mental health repercussions of that trauma. Just as I thought things were improving for my family, the pandemic struck. My focus shifted to simply surviving each day, leaving little room for half-hearted friendships.
One friend vanished when I received my cancer diagnosis. I was genuinely hurt. I had expected her support, as I had stood by her during significant moments in her life, including her wedding and baby showers. Yet, during my toughest time, she went quiet. A simple text or a meal dropped at my door would have meant the world, but I received nothing. It was disheartening to see her ignore my call when I spotted her at the park—my heart sank as she declined my call with no interest in reconnecting.
Another friendship felt like a constant drain. Every conversation revolved around her grievances, whether it was with her husband, her child’s teacher, or even her neighbor’s dog. While I valued her intelligence and humor, our interactions had become overwhelmingly negative. After a decade of friendship, I realized I couldn’t allow our history to dictate our present.
Then there was the friend who was overly clingy. She wanted to be included in everything, and any attempt to create space was met with resistance. I struggled to let her go, especially since I had supported her through some of her darkest times.
Sure, I could have tried to salvage these friendships, but was it worth the effort? I was already grappling with so much: unpacking medical trauma, balancing work, and raising a family. My energy needed to be reserved for authentic, reciprocal relationships. Friendships should not consume an excessive amount of your emotional bandwidth.
This year, I’ve learned that it’s perfectly acceptable for friendships to evolve or fade away. Growth happens at different paces for everyone, and not every friendship can withstand life’s changes. Holding onto relationships out of guilt is counterproductive. Just because you’ve known someone for years doesn’t mean you must remain close. Guilt isn’t a healthy reason to stay connected.
We all harbor personal issues that can hinder true friendships, and as our needs and expectations change, sometimes we find ourselves on different paths. This isn’t about feeling superior; it’s simply recognizing that some connections no longer serve us. It takes courage to let go for the sake of both parties.
During these lengthy pandemic months, I’ve felt the urge to reach out to my former friends. I still care for their well-being, and occasionally wonder what went wrong. Did I miss an opportunity to mend things? However, I’ve chosen to cherish the memories we shared and focus on my peace.
We must allow ourselves the grace to part ways with friends who no longer uplift us. Holding on to these relationships only occupies space that could be filled with healthier connections or self-care. A true friend understands when it’s time to smile and say goodbye.
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In summary, this year has taught me the importance of recognizing when friendships are no longer beneficial and the need to prioritize relationships that foster mutual growth and happiness. It’s okay to let go of those connections that drain us, allowing space for healing and new friendships.
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