Dear Former Spouse,
I encountered you yesterday during our scheduled pickup time, and it struck me that it’s been nearly two years since I’ve seen you in your most vulnerable state. I must admit, my expression likely revealed my relief at this realization, and I apologize for claiming I was merely preoccupied with the dog.
In truth, my thoughts drifted elsewhere.
I believe it’s vital to be candid with each other now, a practice we struggled to embrace during our marriage. With that spirit of honesty, there are several points I feel compelled to share with you.
Apologies and Gratitude
First and foremost, I want to extend my apologies. I regret the promises we made of ‘forever’ without truly grasping what that meant. If there’s blame to be placed for the misunderstandings inherent in that commitment, it rests with our youthful ignorance. We were both still maturing when we exchanged vows, unaware that we would eventually drift apart.
Nonetheless, I want to express my gratitude. Thank you for the ring, for sharing your last name with me, and for imparting lessons on resilience and patience. Thank you for our children, who carry your laughter and spirit—truly, they are the most precious gifts I have ever received.
I appreciate your willingness to fight for our relationship and, ultimately, for having the courage to let me go when I sought freedom.
Lingering Questions
While our divorce agreement outlines our visitation schedules and responsibilities regarding our children, there remain unspoken questions that linger between us. Every interaction brings to mind inquiries that are too uncomfortable to voice.
Some of these questions might evoke sadness, taking us back to the cherished moments we once shared—like those initial nights at home, marveling at our newborn’s tiny hands, or reminiscing about our wedding song. Do you still skip that track on your playlist, or do you allow yourself a moment to reflect on our happier times together?
As I contemplate your current life, I can’t help but wonder—are you in love? Does someone cherish you now? Is your intimacy better than what we had? Has your new partner introduced you to experiences I once deemed off-limits? These thoughts lead to deeper reflections on whether our past love was genuine, or if we were simply unaware of what love truly entailed.
Redefining Our Relationship
Moreover, I find myself pondering our new relationship dynamics. When is a hug appropriate? Should I reach out during significant milestones like our children’s achievements, or at more somber occasions, such as a family funeral? Our interactions have transformed into something unrecognizable, where texts have replaced the warmth of conversation, reducing us to mere acquaintances.
Moving Forward
Lastly, I want to convey that I have moved past my anger. Through therapy and self-reflection, I have learned to let go of the past. However, I sense that anger still lingers within you, visible in your expressions when we meet.
So, I ask—when do you think you will find it in your heart to forgive me?
With sincere regards,
Your Former Spouse
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