Last year, when our school district opted for hybrid learning, my family chose to stick with full-time remote education. Fast forward a year, despite our county’s COVID-19 case numbers being nearly double what they were back then, I found myself sending my kids back to school for in-person learning without a second thought.
It’s perplexing, isn’t it? We have more data now and one of my children is vaccinated, with my younger son set to receive his shot soon (here’s hoping!). We’ve learned that the risk of COVID-19 spread in schools is relatively low when proper measures, such as universal masking, are in place. Additionally, 75% of my family is vaccinated. Yet, when I analyze the situation, it feels illogical.
A year ago, when case numbers were lower, I wouldn’t allow my unvaccinated children to socialize indoors or dine at restaurants, even outside. Now, we’re doing all those things again. It just doesn’t add up.
Yes, we’re vaccinated, and so are most people we interact with—at least I hope so. But what about the kids under 12? They still can’t be vaccinated. So why are we proceeding like it’s all okay?
While we have more knowledge now about safety precautions, my decision-making process is often clouded by pandemic fatigue mixed with instinct. I’m exhausted, and my capacity for logical choices has diminished. The Delta variant and the high number of unvaccinated individuals have shattered the semblance of normalcy we had begun to enjoy this summer. We can’t simply revert to our previous pandemic standards; it feels like we can’t rewind the clock.
Currently, we’re navigating a confusing and illogical landscape, hoping for the best. For those of us with unvaccinated kids, this situation becomes even more complicated.
“Should we allow our child to attend a playdate with someone new? Let me assess the case rates and hospitalizations, then weigh that against the impact of denying them a normal childhood experience,” said Sarah, a friend of mine.
I can resonate with the difficulty of making every decision feel like solving a complex equation. My son wants to go miniature golfing this afternoon, which seems relatively safe—outdoors, vaccinated friends. But what about the employees and other patrons? Are they vaccinated? It’s anyone’s guess. I could suggest he wear a mask, but we all know how that typically goes once he’s out of sight.
My husband and I have outlined some guidelines, yet most of my responses to COVID-related decisions hinge on my emotional state and gut feeling. It’s not exactly rational.
Even my emotional reactions seem contradictory. After an entire year filled with anxiety, I find myself surprisingly less anxious now. I wouldn’t say I’m calm, but I’m not nearly as worried as I was when case counts were lower. It turns out I’m not alone in feeling this way.
“I thought this renewed uncertainty would elevate my anxiety, reminiscent of 2020,” Sarah noted. “Instead, I feel numb from an overload of statistics and confusing choices, leaving me emotionally drained.”
Many of us are experiencing a sense of brokenness—mentally and emotionally. Our systems seem overloaded, and while some parents might misjudge the risks, others might be simply shutting down due to “psychic numbing.”
This can feel overwhelming, akin to riding a roller coaster toward an uncertain future. We think we’re secure, that we’re taking adequate precautions, but the uncertainty is unnerving.
To regain a sense of control, experts suggest leaning on trusted sources for guidance and using personal values to inform decisions. While this is good advice, knowing that I’m not alone in feeling lost amidst this chaos has been the most reassuring aspect for me.
We are deep in the “nothing makes sense” phase of this pandemic. Like the earlier “we’re in this together” sentiment, I trust this phase too shall pass. I may not trust my decision-making abilities in the moment, but I have faith they will return. Until then, I’ll lean on trusted advice and my instincts.
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Summary: Navigating the complexities of COVID-19 during this pandemic has left many of us feeling confused and emotionally drained. While vaccination rates have improved and we have more information, the return to in-person activities can feel illogical compared to our earlier cautious approach. Many parents are wrestling with anxiety, fatigue, and a sense of brokenness in their decision-making processes. It’s a tumultuous time, but recognizing that we’re not alone in this confusion can provide some comfort.
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