Once upon a time, a young boy named Jake proudly claimed he had a hand in naming his mother’s blog. He would tease his siblings, saying, “Without me, she wouldn’t even have a website.” At two years old, he was terrified of almost everything, from his room to his dinner. When he first said the phrase “Home Insemination Kit,” it struck a chord, and thus, the blog was born.
However, as Jake has grown, his feelings about his mother’s activities have shifted significantly. While his siblings enjoy the spotlight, he prefers to stay in the background. Recently, during a conversation about her upcoming trip, he tearfully expressed, “I wish I had never said that name. If I hadn’t, you wouldn’t have to go.” At that moment, the weight of mommy guilt hit hard—almost like a knife to the gut.
Exciting Times and Inner Conflicts
These past few weeks have been incredibly thrilling for me—book launches, luxurious hotels, and even a spot on a talk show! I’ve been fortunate enough to make it onto the New York Times list, a dream come true. Yet, amidst all this excitement, I can’t shake the feeling that my true place is at home, in my comfy yoga pants, surrounded by the children who inspired all of this in the first place.
During my readings, a frequent question comes up regarding how to achieve balance in life. Ironically, I chuckle at this. Balance? I seem to be constantly in search of it. I often find myself restless when not engaged in activities, and when I am, I worry that my family is missing out. The challenge is to enjoy these exhilarating moments while ensuring they don’t come at the expense of my family, a delicate balance I have yet to master.
Missing Home
As I write this, I’m en route to New York for the next four days. I’ll be missing my partner’s birthday and skipping baseball and school performances. While the idea of having a king-sized bed to myself sounds appealing, it comes with a heavy price. I find it difficult to sleep soundly when I can’t hear my children’s breaths at night.
When I return home on Saturday, I realize that this Mother’s Day marks the first time since my daughter Lily was a baby that I don’t want a day off. It turns out that spending too little time with my kids is even more challenging than spending too much.
Resources for Your Journey
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Conclusion
In summary, navigating the complexities of motherhood while pursuing personal passions can lead to feelings of guilt, especially when family commitments are at stake. Yet, these experiences also remind us of the importance of balancing our aspirations with our responsibilities to those we love.
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