As I lie awake, a sense of unease envelops me. My thoughts drift through the events of the day, settling on my daughter, who is peacefully tucked away in bed upstairs. Yes, it’s her who is keeping me up tonight.
I reflect on the challenges we faced today—our sharp words exchanged in frustration. I find myself praying for her, and for me, too. The night before, my mind was consumed with the financial burden of college, leading to an hour spent in restless contemplation. Just two nights ago, I was battling a tension headache from an overload of worries about my to-do list. The week prior, the flu had taken hold of my second grader, leaving us both exhausted as I monitored her through the night.
Next to my bed lies a notepad filled each morning with reminders, worries, and prayers. This morning’s note read, “Schedule orthodontist appointment. Tell son to stop munching on chips.” Each stage of motherhood brings its own set of challenges, yet we constantly grapple with the same worries, the same fears about our adequacy, and the relentless fatigue of nurturing these little ones.
We put in tireless effort. We love with even more intensity. However, as we confront the endless cycle of grocery lists, household chores, and holiday preparations, our fatigue deepens. It’s not merely physical exhaustion; it’s bone-deep weariness. Can you relate? The clamor of daily life, coupled with the towering mountains of laundry and the constant demands, is overwhelming.
Some days, I believe we need to grant ourselves permission to step away from our worries and doubts, to disengage from the fears and uncertainties that plague us. We need to say no, take a break for ourselves, and lay down the burdens we carry.
So here it is: permission to pause, to reflect, to simply be. We can strive for a flawless holiday season or embrace the understanding that perfection is ultimately overrated. As we prepare for gatherings and festivities, let’s not forget to include ourselves on the list of priorities.
We are well-versed in the art of giving. We offer our children the last cookie we had saved for ourselves. We lend them our jackets when they’re cold, enduring discomfort for their sake. Our instincts lead us to prioritize their needs first.
This week, take a moment for yourself. Swap worry and doubt for tranquility and rest. Remind yourself that you are doing a great job as a mother.
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In summary, as mothers, we often carry the weight of the world on our shoulders. Allow yourself to rest, to breathe, and to acknowledge that you are enough just as you are.
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