It was 7:30 AM when my daughter approached me, asking, “What’s wrong, Mommy? Are you okay?” The reason behind her concern was my position—slumped on the living room floor, tears streaming down my face as I clutched my fifth cup of coffee. While many were just beginning their day, I felt like I had already surrendered.
“Mommy’s just feeling a bit sad, sweetheart,” I replied.
“Why sad, Mom?” she inquired, gently patting my back with a tenderness I struggled to reciprocate.
“I’m sad because my coffee is all gone,” I answered, masking the true depths of my despair. In reality, I was wrestling with the overwhelming sensation that I was utterly failing as a parent. I felt exhausted, defeated, and convinced I was a terrible mom. My thoughts spiraled: “I can’t keep doing this. I’m just not cut out for motherhood. Everything I do seems to miss the mark.”
Perhaps I was being overly dramatic. But in that moment, it felt all too real. I had ample reasons to support my feelings of inadequacy. For instance, I was crying in front of my kids, which surely wasn’t beneficial for their emotional development.
By 7:30 AM, I had already scolded my son, Max, about 81 times for his incessant climbing onto the dining room table. I was at my wits’ end, unsure how to convey “Stop hitting your brother” without resorting to chaos.
Moreover, my children often had their meals picnic-style while watching Curious George, as some days I simply couldn’t face the struggle to get them to eat and behave at the table. There were moments when I would lock myself in the bathroom for a brief escape, wishing to be transported to a different reality—one where parenting didn’t feel so burdensome.
I worried about their eating habits: they didn’t consume enough vegetables, indulged too much in junk food, and spent far too long in front of screens. I felt ill-equipped to discipline them effectively or to engage them in meaningful activities throughout the day. The list of my parental shortcomings felt endless.
That morning, I was convinced I was the worst mother in the world. Yet, later that evening, while cleaning up what appeared to be an entire box of Cheerios scattered across the floor, I experienced an unexpected moment of clarity.
I realized I’m not a bad parent. I’m simply normal.
As I began to let go of the guilt and despair, I recalled various blog posts, anecdotes from friends, and books I had read (before my children turned them into confetti). I remembered that other mothers sometimes yell at their kids, struggle with their own guilt, and serve cereal for dinner without a second thought. They, too, have messy homes and seek a moment of peace, hiding in closets.
If so many other mothers—both friends and strangers—were struggling in similar ways, then clearly, I was not alone. If we all faced these challenges, it meant I wasn’t a terrible parent; I was simply navigating the complexities of motherhood like everyone else.
This realization lifted a weight off my shoulders.
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In summary, motherhood is a journey filled with challenges, and it’s essential to recognize that feeling overwhelmed or inadequate is part of the experience. It’s okay to be imperfect; what matters is the love and effort we put into raising our children.
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