As someone who naturally exudes enthusiasm, I’ve often pondered whether my excitement detracts from a certain level of coolness. In my childhood, I brimmed with energy yet was often overshadowed by fears that only allowed me to experience joy after the anxiety-inducing events had concluded. Despite knowing my enthusiasm was present, it took years for me to truly embrace and express it.
In my late twenties and early thirties, I began to articulate my emotions and acquire coping mechanisms for previously overwhelming situations. As I gained mastery over my fears, I found myself drawn to adventures and opportunities I had once avoided. However, my exuberance as an adult—especially when meeting someone inspiring—often garnered comments about my “weirdness.” But I don’t view myself as odd.
My passion for life outweighs my disinterest. Engaging in stimulating conversations and learning from those more knowledgeable than me brings immense joy; it reassures me that life is not out to get me. I don’t feign indifference or act overly eager; I simply connect deeply with people and their ideas. After enduring a challenging youth, I am now fueled by possibilities, regardless of how unrealistic they may be.
The antithesis of enthusiasm is aloofness, a quality I find deeply unappealing. Aloofness may be considered “cool,” but it fosters distance and negativity. A couple of years ago, I had a revealing conversation with a much younger friend, Lisa, who candidly described me as “sort of a nerd” for my age (now in my forties) because I readily display my enthusiasm. That realization saddened me—not just for myself but for the concept of enthusiasm itself.
Aloofness creates barriers, while I strive to make others feel welcomed and at ease. This often leads me to feel uncool and misunderstood, which can be disheartening. So, what should an enthusiastic person do?
I have a friend, James, who unabashedly expresses his love for everyone he meets. His open affection may make some uncomfortable, but he genuinely means it and cannot help but voice it. That’s the essence of enthusiasm—an outpouring of emotion that seeks no reciprocation.
Much of my enthusiasm stems from a desire to alleviate the fears others might share, fears that once kept me from experiencing joy. My friendliness often serves as a shield to protect not only others but also my younger self. Ironically, the very enthusiasm I wield to combat feelings of exclusion can sometimes lead to my own sense of not fitting in.
People may label me as quirky or nerdy because I embrace experiences and connections more readily than I dismiss them. Despite attempts to moderate my exuberance, it is a force difficult to contain. What truly astonishes me is not how others perceive my enthusiasm; rather, it’s the fact that, after years of grappling with fear and unhappiness, I have blossomed into a genuinely enthusiastic individual.
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In summary, while enthusiasm may often be perceived as “uncool,” it is a natural and vibrant expression of joy and connection. Embracing our enthusiasm can lead to deeper relationships and a more fulfilling life, despite any societal labels we may face.
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