After a surprise snow day announcement, I gathered my kids and turned on the news. Amid the chaos of changing diapers and cleaning up scattered snacks, I caught a glimpse of a baby with Down syndrome on the screen. Like always, I felt a rush of anticipation as I waited to learn more. My partner and I searched online for details, and then it was revealed—Lucas was named the Gerber baby for 2018, and he has Down syndrome.
This moment represented a significant shift in the perception of disabilities. This announcement had the potential to reshape my son’s life. It was a pivotal step towards redefining what “adorable” means, and in that instant, our world felt suspended as we embraced the possibilities ahead.
When my son, Noah, was a baby, numerous people suggested I consider modeling for him. His grandmother seemed to bring it up every time I shared a picture online—she was persistent. At first, I laughed it off, thinking she was seeing him through the lens of a loving grandparent. I often doubted whether others genuinely found him cute or if they simply felt pity.
Mostly, I believed the world wasn’t prepared. No, that’s not entirely accurate. Ultimately, I wasn’t ready. I wasn’t equipped for the rejection I feared might come. I was anxious about my bubble of acceptance bursting, unsure how I would cope with the world’s harsh realities.
To my son:
Dear Noah,
I owe you an apology. I didn’t have the confidence in the people I strive to advocate for. I promote acceptance and inclusion, sharing all the reasons you are so lovable across my social media feeds. Yet, when it came down to it, I felt I needed to protect us from potential harm. I didn’t want us to be hurt. My dearest, I am truly sorry. I promise to do better. I vow not to shy away from everything you can achieve just because of what might be. That is not who I am, nor who I want you to be. The world is compassionate, open-minded, and ready for you!
With Deepest Love,
Mom
This article was originally published on Feb. 14, 2018.
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In summary, the recognition of Lucas as the Gerber baby has immense significance for families like mine. It symbolizes hope and acceptance for children with Down syndrome, encouraging us to embrace their potential and the kindness of the world around us.
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