As we drove down the road, I heard a familiar voice call from the backseat, “Mommy!” My son was trying to get my attention, but the words were lost to me. After several attempts to hear him over the music, I turned it off, rolled up the windows, and asked him to repeat himself. Yet, all I caught was a vague mumble. Frustrated, I finally shouted back, “I can’t hear you!”
In that moment, I was confronted with one of my biggest fears: not being able to hear my own child. I’ve worn hearing aids since I was eight years old due to nerve damage, and without them, the world sounds like a muffled jumble. While I’ve generally accepted my hearing loss, it became a concern when my husband and I decided to start a family. My primary worry was not about passing on my hearing difficulties but about the possibility of missing out on my child’s important moments.
Despite my efforts to remain optimistic, the anxiety intensified after my son was born. Every cry, coo, and giggle felt crucial, and I wanted to hear every single noise. My husband assured me that he would alert me if our son needed something, but I couldn’t bring myself to trust that. He might have perfect hearing, but I needed to feel in control, even if my own ears betrayed me.
When our son transitioned to his crib down the hallway, I became more anxious. I continued to sleep with one hearing aid in, and we introduced a noisy video monitor that only added to my sleepless nights. Finally, after months of tension, I surrendered to exhaustion and realized I needed to rely on my husband’s hearing. I knew he had our child’s best interests at heart.
Now that our son is three, he’s begun to express curiosity about my hearing aids. I explain to him how they work and why he should be gentle with them, emphasizing that they help me hear the world around us. As we engage in deeper conversations, the challenges have multiplied. Not hearing him when he wants to share something important leads to a mix of frustration, anger, sadness, and ultimately, fear of missing out.
Regardless of these challenges, I strive to make the most of our situation. I encourage open communication with my son about my hearing loss. I practice lip reading, and I’m teaching him to look directly at me when he speaks. This not only aids my understanding but also brings a bit of humor when his exuberance sends drool flying everywhere.
Having a hearing impairment does not diminish my ability to parent effectively. Yes, there are moments of frustration, but they are manageable. I may not catch every word my son says, but I will always do my best to hear him. I am determined to be the mom he needs, disability or not.
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In summary, being a parent with hearing aids presents unique challenges, but with determination and open communication, I strive to embrace the joys of motherhood.
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