I owe you an apology. I’ve come to realize that I’ve been harder on you than I should be.
As I watch you from the corner of my eye, sitting at your desk, focused on your latest project, it strikes me that I often overlook you. Instead of checking in, I find myself preoccupied with your siblings, worrying about their laughter and the bond they share. I’m concerned about your older brother, Alex, and your younger sister, Mia. I fret over Alex’s sensitivity and how much he feels, and I worry that I’m not there for him as much as he needs. With Mia, I fear that I’m losing her to her adolescent interests and friends, and I find myself envying the connection she has with your father. This constant worrying consumes my thoughts and, in doing so, I’ve neglected to consider you.
You, my dear middle child, are different. You express your thoughts and feelings openly. You have a remarkable ability to communicate your needs, and I admire your independence and quick wit. Because of this, I’ve often taken you for granted, assuming you were okay, but I realize now that my expectations may have been misplaced. I’ve used your resilience against you, unintentionally overlooking your feelings, and it’s time I change that.
Just yesterday, when you asked me to fetch your soccer gear, I snapped back curtly, “You can do it yourself.” It struck me hard. I would never speak to your siblings that way because I worry about them so much. I’ve been unfair to you, not recognizing that your easy-going nature doesn’t mean you don’t need my support too.
Reflecting on this, I now understand that I’ve been parenting you differently, and that’s not right. I’m genuinely sorry if I’ve made you feel less loved or if you’ve felt left out when your siblings play together. I want to ensure you know how much I appreciate your unique gifts and personality. I’ve been too focused on worrying about Alex and Mia and neglected to worry about you, which isn’t fair.
As a mother, my goal is for each of you to feel completely loved and secure, no matter what. I want you to know that I’m here for you, ready to support you through any of your fears and dreams. You should never feel envious of each other but rather celebrate one another’s achievements and joys.
So, my sweet Emma, as you lay your head down tonight, remember that you are cherished. Your individuality and the bond we share are invaluable to me. I’m committed to doing better moving forward, and I’ll strive to show you just how much I care.
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In summary, I want you to know that my love for you is limitless. I am an imperfect mother, striving to improve every day, and I promise to be more attentive to your needs.
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