A few weeks back, I had the chance to attend a wedding, and I prepared for the entire day. It wasn’t a particularly good day in terms of pain, but it felt like a reprieve from the relentless discomfort I had experienced the week before. I took my time getting ready, relishing the moments of feeling somewhat like my old self—something that is rare since I often lack the energy just to blow-dry my hair. Showers, once a daily ritual, now feel exhausting, and the thought of applying makeup triggers anxiety, so I often skip it altogether.
When I shared photos from the wedding, I was met with numerous compliments about how great I looked, with some even saying I appeared healthier than in recent times. While I appreciate the kind words from friends and family, comments about my appearance can be challenging to accept. Social media often presents a distorted view of reality, making it hard to convey my true experience.
I want to represent the fact that not every day is a struggle for me, and I refuse to let my illness define who I am. However, I grapple with the concern that those viewing my posts might assume I am on the mend when, in reality, many days are filled with pain. How do I show a genuine representation of my journey while also enjoying the moments that bring me joy?
Living with Lyme disease and its related conditions complicates this further. The condition is widely misunderstood, and many people remain unaware of how serious chronic Lyme can be. The CDC’s stance often invalidates the reality of my daily battles. It’s hard enough navigating my illness without the added burden of skepticism from others. This doubt can lead me down a dark path where fear and anxiety overshadow the positivity I strive to maintain.
I document my journey with Lyme on social media in hopes of reaching others who may be experiencing similar struggles. Many might have symptoms without realizing Lyme is to blame, or they may encounter healthcare providers unwilling to consider the diagnosis. Even when tests are conducted, the results can often be misleading. I aim to be a voice for those who feel unheard, especially as our medical community often overlooks the challenges we face.
Yet, each day, I find myself contemplating what to share. I worry if my posts accurately represent my experience or if they downplay the severity of my situation. Social media can easily reduce us to just the highlights, overlooking the pain behind the smiles. A picture can mask the chaos within, making it seem like we have everything under control when, in truth, we often feel overwhelmed.
For those who frequently hear they don’t “look sick enough,” I want to say: you are seen, you are loved, and your struggles are valid. For every individual who claims your experience isn’t real, there are many more who will support you through your challenges. Often, it takes personal experience for someone to understand, and I wouldn’t wish this on anyone. I am working on being more compassionate towards those quick to judge and reminding myself that everyone’s pain is unique and cannot be compared.
I won’t stop sharing my journey, and I’ll continue to highlight both the good and the bad. Although my life can be difficult, smiling in a photograph serves as a reminder that the vibrant person I once was is still within me. She is evolving and will emerge stronger than ever.
I’m learning to embrace love and, with that, comes the reality of criticism. We stand tall as warriors, facing each day knowing that while pain is inevitable, it cannot diminish our joy.
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Summary
This article explores the challenges faced by individuals dealing with chronic illnesses, particularly when others doubt their experiences based on appearances. It emphasizes the importance of representation, compassion, and resilience while navigating both the physical and emotional struggles of living with an illness.
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