Before delving into my daily marijuana use, let’s clarify a few points.
- Yes, I consume cannabis every single day.
- Yes, I’m a proud mother of two.
- No, I don’t smoke in front of my kids. They’re blissfully unaware of what cannabis is.
- And no, I only indulge when my husband is around; I never smoke while supervising the children.
- I also never drive under the influence.
Now that we’ve established that, let me explain my reasoning. I manage several psychiatric conditions, including a severe anxiety disorder that can be debilitating. This disorder often manifests as anger or impatience, making me difficult to be around for my family. I might find myself either in tears or snapping at my loved ones to tidy up. While I am medicated, my prescription isn’t a magic solution. My rescue medication can take up to thirty minutes to alleviate a panic attack, which can feel like an eternity when you’re struggling to breathe.
In contrast, marijuana helps to alleviate my panic attacks in under five minutes—I’ve timed it.
Moreover, using cannabis makes me a more engaged parent. I tend to be naturally high-strung, and clutter can overwhelm me, making it challenging to enjoy playtime with my kids. While I excel at reading to them or doing crafts, imaginative play is not my strong suit. Watching my children create elaborate worlds with their toys is delightful, but joining them often leaves me feeling lost.
Marijuana changes that dynamic. It calms my mind and lets me embrace the messiness of playtime. I can let go of my worries and focus on creating joyful moments with my kids. Just the other day, my husband and I spent a delightful half-hour singing classic tunes and having fun with our son. I was pleasantly relaxed, just enough to truly enjoy the moment.
When I’m high, I can get down on the floor and ask, “What animals should live in our zoo?” or join in their imaginative adventures, using silly voices and taking part in their games. This playful interaction fills my children’s emotional needs and strengthens our bond. I’m no longer rushing to complete chores; instead, I’m present, painting, or letting them draw on my hands with markers.
With my husband around to take care of driving, whether it’s to visit my mother or simply running errands, I find it easier to be relaxed. I can help in the kitchen without worry, letting go of the fears that often cloud my mind. I focus on what truly matters instead of sweating the small stuff.
If I lived in a state where marijuana was legal, there wouldn’t be any judgment—many would see it as no different from enjoying a glass of wine. I’m not dependent on it; I often take breaks, going days or even a week without smoking. While marijuana isn’t physically addictive, I’m mindful of not developing a psychological dependence.
Yes, I use quality cannabis obtained through a trusted friend from another state. It’s specifically chosen to enhance my well-being without the reckless effects often associated with youthful use. I vaporize like an adult, avoiding traditional joints, and I’m careful about where I store my supplies, keeping them well out of my children’s reach.
In short, yes, I smoke nearly every day. It enhances my parenting and improves my overall quality of life. Feel free to judge me, but I view cannabis as a tool to manage the heavy emotional weight I carry. I look forward to the day it’s legalized everywhere, but until then, I refuse to let outdated stigmas ruin my time with my children. I’m a mother who regularly uses marijuana, and I stand by my choice.
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Summary
As a daily marijuana user and mother, I find that cannabis allows me to connect more deeply with my children and manage my anxiety. It helps me engage in their imaginative play, creating a happier and more loving environment for our family. Although societal judgments exist, I consider it a valuable tool for enhancing my quality of life and parenting.
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