When my partner was diagnosed with a rare form of bone cancer, we made the decision to keep our children’s lives as normal as possible. I would remain with them at our overseas assignment while he traveled back to the States for treatment. This arrangement allowed our kids to start Pre-K and Nursery school as we had planned. We had hyped it up all summer, and everyone felt ready for this transition. As their main source of entertainment and interaction, I was also feeling the need for a break from my daily routine as their primary caregiver. We explained to the kids that Daddy was unwell and would be flying to see a doctor who would help him. We marked the day he would return on our large wall calendar, setting the stage for the eight weeks that lay ahead as a solo mom.
I deliberately avoided labeling myself as a single mom because I am not single. My upbringing as an only child of a single mom allows me to recognize that I had significantly more support than those who navigate parenting without a partner. Although I was alone in a foreign country, solely responsible for my children, I had the comfort of knowing there was someone who cared for them just as much as I do, someone I could reach out to whenever I needed emotional support.
However, this isn’t my story; it’s about t-ball.
Navigating Family Events Alone
Navigating family events alone with a toddler in my arms and a four-year-old in tow was often awkward. I struggled to socialize with other parents because I had to keep my eyes on two kids darting in opposite directions or practicing their superhero kicks on each other until one of them burst into tears. Yet, I was determined to integrate us into the school community, attending every event I could.
The First Day of T-Ball
When the first day of t-ball arrived, I found myself juggling a diaper bag stocked with toys for my daughter, a purse full of snacks, and a sports bag. I was too frantic to notice how others perceived us as we made our way to the ball fields. My two-year-old whined about wanting to go to the park instead, while my four-year-old lagged behind. I thought I could handle t-ball registration and the first practice without any issues. My daughter and I would play with her toys while cheering for my son from the sidelines. Was I ever wrong about that?
Experienced parents could probably guess that my only knowledge of t-ball came from the funny blooper videos I’d seen online. I quickly realized that the event demanded parental involvement, with mostly fathers required to assist at every stage of practice—catching, throwing, adjusting gloves, and trying to keep the chaos contained. Panic filled my stomach as I feared my son would feel the absence of his dad even more, and I felt embarrassed that I couldn’t manage both roles at once. I worried I had set my son up for disappointment.
A Moment of Kindness
Amid my frantic thoughts about keeping my daughter safe from stray balls while also ensuring she wasn’t out of reach, something wonderful happened. I looked up to see a dad playing catch with both his son and mine. They were all smiling. When it was time to line up, he kindly guided both boys to their spots and assisted them through stretches and drills. My instinct was to hug him and apologize for feeling like a burden, but then I realized no one was treating us as one.
No one asked questions or seemed annoyed that he was helping not just his child but mine as well. One dad after another leaned down, offering tips and encouragement to my son, ruffling his hair and cheering him on. When I needed to run onto the field to assist my son, I glanced back to see another mom holding my daughter and reassuring me with a gesture that everything was okay.
At the end of practice, I approached one of the fathers who had spent a considerable amount of time with my son. I was surprised to discover that we didn’t share a common language. Yet, there he was, offering his time and support to my boy. It didn’t matter that he was coaching in Spanish while my son spoke English; the message was clear. The language was love. The language was inclusion. The language was community. In that moment, I found a glimmer of hope that maybe we would be okay.
Conclusion
In conclusion, my experience at t-ball illustrated the profound impact a supportive community can have during challenging times. It reminded me that even in difficult situations, kindness and generosity still thrive.
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