Losing a parent at a young age leaves an indelible mark, a reality that resonates deeply with me as I reflect on my own experiences. My mother passed away from ovarian cancer when I was just five years old, leaving me with only fleeting memories of her vibrant spirit. She was merely 37 at the time of her passing. Since then, I have dedicated much of my life to preserving the essence of who she was—the sound of her laughter, the warmth of her embrace, and the love she shared with my sister and me. However, my recollections are hazy, often blurring the lines between reality and fabricated memories influenced by family stories and a child’s imagination.
Photos serve as my lifeline to her memory, yet I find myself with a scant few images to hold onto. The majority are posed snapshots, with only a handful capturing her in candid moments. These few precious photographs are treasured so deeply that if disaster struck my home, they are among the first things I would rescue—right after my family, of course. Now that I am 32 and have a two-year-old son of my own, the fear of reaching the age my mother was at her passing looms large. I worry about leaving my son with the same void I experienced. The thought of potentially outliving her makes me uneasy, and I fret over whether I am doing enough to ensure he will remember me.
Unlike the abundance of memories my husband could leave behind for our son, I have far fewer. Should something happen to me, my son would mostly have a collection of selfies—images that don’t capture the depth of love and experiences we’ve shared. Sadly, he wouldn’t remember our countless park visits or all the little things I did to introduce him to the world around him; he’s simply too young to retain those memories.
Be Present in Your Family’s Memories
I share my story to encourage you to prioritize being present in your family’s memories. I urge you to step in front of the camera, regardless of how you feel about your appearance or if you haven’t styled your hair. If today were your last, your child wouldn’t care about those superficial concerns; they would want to remember you—the real you. While posed selfies have their place, I implore you to capture more moments that reflect the love you give every day.
One of my favorite images of my mother isn’t from a significant occasion like her wedding day. It’s one where she’s sitting on the floor, painting a chair. That candid moment mirrors my own intense focus when engaged in what I love. Looking at that picture, I strive to conjure memories of her personality and essence.
Capture More Moments
In our modern world filled with advanced technology at our fingertips, I challenge all mothers to make it a habit to capture more of their lives. Try to have someone take your picture weekly, whether you’re playing on the floor with your kids or enjoying a day in the park. And please, don’t delete those photos simply because you don’t think they’re flattering enough; your children will cherish them one day. They deserve more than filtered images—they need to see the real you, how much you loved them, and the life you shared together.
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In Summary
Capturing moments through photos can forge lasting memories for your children. Prioritize being present and visible in their lives, so they have a tangible connection to you and the love you shared.
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