My sense of humor has a slight edge of darkness. I often find myself laughing a bit too heartily at shows like Netflix’s Dead to Me. I catch myself adding, “unless he dies,” to memes about love and eternity. Occasionally, I need to check with someone who hasn’t experienced widowhood to see if what I plan to write or share crosses the line into the more morbid territory.
But I’m not broken or overly grim. I’m simply a widow. My perspective and sense of humor have been shaped by watching my husband fade away due to a relentless illness, an experience that stole his spark and left a void in our lives.
The makeshift fort my children constructed from blankets and cushions in the living room has a sign reading “Caution: Death” written in bold black marker. They remind me quite plainly that they understand death is a reality we all face one day. Several times a year, they play tag and hide-and-seek in a cemetery, laughing and enjoying the moment beside the memorial stones.
Far from being morbid, they are simply kiddows. Their understanding of life is colored by the sorrow of losing their father, an experience no child should have to endure.
When adults witness my children discussing death with a refreshing frankness, I often catch their concerned glances, a mix of “Are they okay?” and “Shouldn’t you be worried?” All I can do is shake my head, silently assuring them that my kids’ honesty about mortality is not something that needs to be fixed; rather, it’s a strength I’m just beginning to grasp.
1. They Embrace the Reality of Death.
While many of us see death as something that happens to others, my kiddows know it’s an inevitable part of life. This awareness doesn’t instill fear in them; instead, it fuels their desire to live fully.
2. They Understand Grief is Not Something to Fix.
Having faced their own loss, they recognize that being present for a friend in pain is often more important than trying to “fix” their feelings.
3. They Acknowledge Life’s Unpredictability.
My children have witnessed the chaos of illness and have learned that some things are beyond our control. Each day, they choose to forge ahead, showcasing a remarkable bravery.
4. They’re Learning to Navigate Their Emotions.
While they may not always accurately identify their feelings, they are becoming attuned to how emotions can influence their actions. They’re learning to let their feelings exist without allowing them to take over their lives.
5. They’re Unafraid to Seek Help.
When emotions become overwhelming, they’re not hesitant to express their need for support. They understand the value of therapy and the importance of having their own space to process their thoughts.
6. They’re Inquisitive and Fearless.
My kiddows ask tough questions that leave even the most seasoned adults stumped. They patiently await answers, even when the response is simply “I don’t know.”
7. They Value Life’s Small Joys.
Whether it’s a colorful bird perched on a branch or a stunning sunset, they often pull me away from chores to appreciate the beauty around us.
8. They Recognize Love’s Permanence.
While they understand that death is final, they also know that love endures. It’s the greatest gift we can share, one that remains untouched by tragedy.
As a widow, I see how my children have been shaped by their experiences. Their understanding of life and death may unsettle some, but they are not broken; they are kids molded by adversity, carrying truths that will stay with them forever.
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In summary, my children have grown into wise, compassionate beings, equipped with a unique perspective on life and death. They remind us that while grief is a part of living, love is the ultimate gift that transcends even the most profound loss.
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